If discipline does not come naturally, hand over the card

                                                      

Read an article on willpower recently and the conclusion is that to me it comes as naturally as a vegan craving beef tartare. I have no discipline or will power. If a chocolate cake is put in front of me, I WILL have at least two slices even though I know what sugar and simple carbs do to my blood sugar levels. The same with my shopping. It’s like there is a driving force that controls me and if I buy one thing, I somehow feel that buying 10 things is just as bad as buying the First thing, so I do. Anyway I send a shameful amount of money between December and January. So shameful that despite the full disclosure on blog, not going to disclose that one. If I am ever going to clear my credit card debts, I just need to know that they’re not there, so I handed them over to my mum when she gave me a loan, BUT….. I still have a debit card which means that I think I can reduce payments for a month and buy that Whistles dress or three.

I never buy full price Whistles but their sales are soooooo good, it feels criminal or as Nadine puts it, like committing suicide to leave such a good bargain. Anyway the amazing friend she is, she’s offered to look after my card and give me an allowance every month for my food and miscellaneous spends and the deal is that if I need to pay for anything on card, then I give her back money to put onto card, but that all seems a bit time-consuming, so I’m gonna see if I can just get a basic card that she can transfer the money to. She also suggested, actually I asked if it was acceptable to request contributions for my Reunion trip as my birthday present from folks as I may be able to save all the money and I’ll be damned if I’m not standing atop a volcano on 25^th August 2012.