Where to start with this one? The first step to recovery is acceptance right so here it is… I. AM. A. SHOPALHOLIC! There said it, my habit has landed me in £6200 debt to date, causes me dread and feelings of guilt, dreadful feelings of guilt in terms of the money that I spend on clothes, beddings, superfoods, books, make-up, skin care products etc which can do so much in terms of helping people who have less and also selfishly giving me better experiences than guilt of clothes that I don’t wear, make-up I don’t use, books I don’t read etc. As always, any form of addiction comes from a place of incompleteness, that empty void etc.
My sob story is that whilst I’ve always been into pretty things (like most women), my "I need to have" comes from allowing my identity to be eroded in a really abusive relationship where my obsessive, insecure, jealous partner actually took away my clothes which were part of my identity. Since finding the strength to ask him to leave, I’ve been trying to regain my sense of self and it’s unfortunately been done through the acquisition of ‘things’ which as grateful as I am for being able to afford them (well not really as it’s all borrowed money). I’m lucky enough to have a job (especially in this climate) and it pays ok, but not really enough to afford my Whistles habit. Since my first purchase of harem pants and stripey skirt last spring, I have since acquired 15 more items and it’s not a cheap habit and I certainly don’t have the same amount of money as Sam Cam or Catherine, Duchess of Cambridge. So needing to cure my addiction, get rid of sleepless nights and save enough to accomplish my I’m going to:
- embark on a thrifty living challenge
- get a part time job
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